I was born in a small village in Nepal where there was no electricity and no roadways. I was born in the Hindu Brahmin religion. My mother always taught me to live a good life in order to get heaven. She taught me that, “If you do some evil you can’t get heaven, you have to go to hell.”
I tried my best in order to live a good life, but when I was eight years old I started committing very evil sins. I always enjoyed sexual things like committing adultery. When I was 12 years old I became a serious sinner before my family. I started hating my family. One day I beat my mother very seriously so that she became unconscious. When I saw that situation, I decided to go far from my house.
I left my hometown and went to Bombay, India. After coming to India I thought I would live a good life, but as much as I tried, I committed more and more sins. I became an alcoholic and started to take drugs and go to prostitutes. When I saw my life, it was totally miserable, but I was not able to change it by myself. I became very disappointed with my religion. I began to think, “Why, even though I am serving many gods, is there still no help from the gods to change my miserable life?” At last I decided to change my religion and went into the Islam religion. But believing in Islam still made me fear going to hell because of my committing sins continually. I again changed to the Catholic religion, but I was not able to be freed from the sin problem in my heart. I became more and more serious about sin. I was never able to forget my mother’s word, “If you do bad, you’ll go to hell.”
At last I met one Protestant man, and he taught me that Catholics are wrong and Protestants are right. I started to follow the Protestants and they gave me a Bible. When I first read the Bible, whatever God told me not to do, I did it already, and whatever God told me to do, I could not do. I started attending one church called New Life Church in Mumbai. Seeing my sincere and zealous heart for God, that church sent me to their Bible School, and after some time I became a pastor.
In my heart I always thought of serving God very sincerely and I wanted to be a perfect man. But when I saw my life, even though I taught the Bible in church my heart was under the authority of sin continually. I tried my best to keep the commandments but was not able to. I started fasting very sincerely thinking that I might be able to control my flesh in this way. Every day I had only one meal for several months. From whatever salary I used to receive, I gave almost all of it as an offering. I used to pray for almost 16 hours a day. I did everything possible to come out of my sin problem, but the sin in my heart continuously suppressed my heart.
I explained all these things to my senior pastors at New Life Church.
“Outwardly I am so honest but inside of my heart there is a lot of sin and I am breaking the Law of God. How can I be freed from my sin?”
One time they taught, “Write your sins on a piece of paper and burn it.” At last they announced that my sins were forgiven. But my heart was under the authority of sin continually and I became a more serious sinner. One day I found myself like the woman caught in adultery in John chapter 8. Seeing this kind of my image, I decided not to serve as a pastor anymore. At that time I became almost mad because of the great fear of hell in my heart.
One day I visited a friend’s house and saw one book lying on his table called The Secret of Forgiveness of Sin and Being Born Again. I became very hopeful in my heart and thought, “I’ll get my answer in this book.” I asked my friend to lend me that book. That night I read the whole book and became born again. I got assurance that all my sins had been forgiven. I became very happy and started dancing. Great happiness, peace and rest entered in my heart.
Every day I began to preach that, “Till now, whatever I taught is all wrong and I am a false pastor. But now I came to know the truth.” I started to preach the sermons from the book, The Secret of Forgiveness of Sin and Being Born Again in the church. Because of this I started to be hated by my senior pastors.
I didn’t know that there was a Good News Church in India, so I couldn’t know how to live my life after being born again. I was again tempted by Satan seriously, but by the grace of God I found a Bible seminar held in a small house in Thane. In that seminar, Missionary In-ki Hong, ministering in Bombay Good News Church, was the preacher. I went there and listened to his preaching. That time I thought in my heart that Pastor Park had sent his son for me. Since then I continually started to go to the Good News Church and listen to the Word of God. God gave me distinction about the true church and the servant of God.
Afterward, by the grace of God, I was led to enter the missionary school in Bombay Good News Church. God allowed much grace and many blessings through His church and servant in my life. After being born again, I saw God leading my life continuously. When I see all the works of God, I am very thankful to the Lord God. Now I am ministering in Miraj Good News Church in Maharashtra, India. Although I have many lacking things in me, everything is covered under the love of God.
From the Goodnews Magazine
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